My 'itinery' for life

To be or not to be, that is the question I am asking myself today as I take time out from the office to ponder and plan my future. I'm sitting, being, watching as the waves hit the beach on this grey day, clouds heavy with rain.

A mother with a stroller, a couple with a dog; voices behind me, dishes clattering, people closing umbrellas and scuffing shoes as they enter the beachside cafe. People walking, people running, empty cups of coffee, my coffee gone cold and a heater above me reminds me that it is cold out there!

I am lucky, there is nothing I need in order to exist at this precise moment. I imagine my future - a wonderful relationship, connected to many people and using 'every experience as part of my best destiny and beautiful to my soul' ((Beck, M 2008). I am motivated by hope and thankful for what I am about to receive.

 I am doing my best while leaving 'the issue' to fate!

These are the optimistic views/visions I am taking while following Martha Becks advice about life; and using this blog to research, reflect and write about how I am 'Steering by Starlight' and sitting in my 'studio' to feel the stillness and reduce my anxiety until calm. Thank you Martha - I recommend your book to anyone waiting for the pieces to fall into place!

 Until that day or time I am working through confusion, living for the moment and assuring myself that 'everything happens for a reason'!

 My time this morning is uninterrupted (except for emails, phone calls, washing, dishes, and a Skype meeting)...so now, at this moment I notice the things around me, I breathe in and pay attention to the sensations I feel and begin to imagine the future and contemplate my 'itinerary' for life...'

I must make another 'dream board planner' or 'pictorial star chart' as Martha describes it - I did this once and some of it 'came true' and some of it is still a dream and picture on the 'board'. What will it look like now?

 I already have a picture of being able to work at home thanks to my daughter/s efforts to redesign my 'office space' - although it is becoming cluttered again, so time to clean it up if I am truly planning on a doing business from home!

 Psychology degree - I've been 'picturing' that for 4 years at least! Ok, so enrol and be done with it!

 Book/Cafe - I suppose I am picturing that now, sitting here in this cafe. I can imagine bookshelves, aromatherapy candles, floorboards, gifts, local artists, events, a fire, a bar and music Sunday afternoon - easy...those cafes already exist, what will be the point of difference (more dreaming needed!)

My latest and probably most likely creative idea see me remain within my field of experience (rather than dreams); a 'personal learning consultant'; a mentor, a coach - supporting learning journeys and inspiring others. I enjoy 'public speaking' and presenting workshops - I recognise skills in others and have been able to help them 'do what they are good at', while finding out ways they can continue to learn and develop their skills...

These are not dreams, they are things I do well, am passionate about and within the realms of possibility and independently (autonomously)

I will find the work/life balance and flexible hours by taking initiative, networking and promoting myself through the endorsements of others and those I am connected with...above all - I am not afraid to move on and am ready to accept the challenge 'and chase' of the changes that await me!

My next blog will take me to 'how' and the pros and cons of moving on...